Lying in bed thinking about things that been happening in the last few months.
My heart is feels heavy. My mind drifts to an imaginary scene in the sanctuary where I always feel God’s presence.
I storm in walking in front of the stage. My head is down; my mind is deep in thought. The presence of Satan is felt. My head lift as I address him. “What are you doing here? You don’t belong here. This is God’s house. Go away.” Satan is silent. “Why do you keep messing with me?” Aside remark; Oh, I shouldn’t be talking to you. “BE Gone!” He is silent.
I turn and address God, “Why are You letting these things happen? I’m starting to feel like Job.” Asking honestly in a very quiet voice, “Why aren’t you protecting me?” God quietly waits. Scriptures enter into my mind on how God responded to Job. Another aside with humility, deep breath, eyes closed; “Oh boy, I’m going to have God come down on me like Job- not good.”
Addressing Satan again with a questioning face and attitude, “Do you think I will change my mind now that I’ve been shown what eternity is with God?” There is silent. I yell, “I… Belong… TO GOD!” I’m surprise with a feeling of God’s pleasure as it passes through me.
Addressing God, “I felt that…..” Eyes closed and a slow breath in and out. “Look into the deepness of my heart; Father see the truthfulness of the love I have for You. Satan can’t see the truth, but You can…. show Satan my heart.”
God speaks, “What do you think I am doing?”
“Oh!” understanding comes…..
Romans 5:3-5 “……we (let us) also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4 perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5 And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.”