My life has been a little crazy lately. There have been some life changing events. Some are temporary and others will be permanent. Through this chaos I find myself giving up parts of my life to serve others. I find myself physical and emotional tried. I had to reprioritize what is important in my life now. I have been having doubts about my faith and questions that aren’t easily answered. Each time these issues come up I turn to God. I would talk to him either in my mind, writings, or prayers. I would ask for help with understanding and guidance. I would ask God to be patience with me and to teach me patience. Before these changes there was always extra time for God. Now I have to make time for myself to be with God and read scriptures.
Today I found myself in a situation where I was asking what I thought were hard questions. “Is God real and what evidences do we have that He is real?” I felt very confused, so I started talking to God. I found myself being anchor into the bible. Believing it as a history book to past people’s lives who did see, hear, and talk to God. Believing it is 100% true. I found myself saying millions of people believe in God. I found myself visualizing that I was standing alone in my church looking around and remember feeling God’s presence there and saying this is a place of God where people meet to talk and worship Him. I found myself hearing Jesus say, “By faith, not by sight.” I found myself feeling God’s presence in me.
I found my evidences that God exist…. By the way the word exist can mean “am.” God says, “I am.”
Exodus 3:14 (NIV) God said to Moses, “I am who I am. This is what you are to say to the Israelites: ‘I am has sent me to you.’”
I also found myself talking to my pastor about my day, my confusion, my doubts, and some my evidences. I’m not so tried now.
Love and peace.