My mind doubts my salvation sometimes. I keep making mistakes after mistakes. I sin.
I see myself in a dirt pit that is over my head. I can’t climb out of it. When I look up I see in my mind’s eye a vision of Jesus with an outstretched hand to lift me up. His loving eyes say just take my hand. My heart is full of gratitude to Him. He gives me grace. He loves me. He understands my heart when others can’t. God says we honor him with our hearts and not just with our words and actions.
I’m reminded of the story of Mary Magdalene who cried for Jesus at His tomb. Jesus came to her she held onto Him. (John 20:10-18) She adored Him. I crave to physical touch Jesus and give Him affection she was able to give him. I know I can’t but sometimes I feel Jesus’ spirit near me or within me more than other times. This is when I feel the greatest closeness to Him. These are the times when I shed tears for the love God gives me. He brings me a peacefulness in my heart that can’t be described. He makes me smile and takes my breath away in awe. Only Jesus can do these things to me. Only Jesus can lift me out of my pit.
1 John 3:19-20 (NIV)
This is how we know that we belong to the truth and how we set our hearts at rest in his presence: If our hearts condemn us, we know that God is greater than our hearts, and he knows everything.
Verse 24: The one who keeps God’s commands lives in him, and he in them. And this is how we know that he lives in us: We know it by the Spirit he gave us.
Jesus can lift you up out of your pit too.