I’m not even sure where to start when I talk about God’s hand in my life. You see, I’m not afraid of asking God, “Why?” and expecting an answer from him. Some people would think that going to God in this boldness would be disrespectful. It’s not for me. I was raised in a home where questioning things were not allowed. Being bold is something God wants from me. Trusting him with questions and answers is something I’ve been learning to do for a while. The hard part for me now is accepting and understanding the answers when they aren’t what I want to hear.
One of the questions I ask God the most is why somethings happen. The first time I did this, I got a huge lesson in freewill. God tends to remind me from time to time that it’s not just my freewill, but all of humankind’s freewill… Freewill can be seen at the beginning of God’s relationship with man when Adam and Eve disobeyed God in the Garden of Eve, then sin was born. Freewill isn’t bad, even though it allows us to sin. It allows us to choose right and wrong and the in-betweens (the gray areas). The greatness of freewill is it allows us to choose to love God willingly. Love that’s not given willingly isn’t love. Think about that for a minute as Easter approaches. I can see God’s beautiful hand there.
Back to me accepting and understanding God’s answers to my “whys.” Sometimes the answers are I need to wait and be still. This is very hard for me especially when I’m hurting about a situation. When I’ve done everything, I can possibly think to do to fix the situation, then I must come to a place where I let go and trust God to handle it. Then try not to take it back out of God’s hands. When I did this recently, God showed me where he is working in my life and with others. This is where I see God’s beautiful hand that leaves me speechless in wonder and full of love for Him. My prayers are being answered, and God has shown me my hurting is not for nothing. There is beauty in it.
My precious friends whatever it is, do your part. Then lay it down, be still, and let God handle it. Things aren’t what we see, but what God sees. He’s moving in places that will leave you breathlessly full of hope and love. Try not to take it back out of his hands.
Psalm 46:10, “He says, “Be still, and know that I am God—.”
On the bold side of it, God is punching the snot out of the devil which gives me great pleasure…. I so need to put on the Full Armor of God (Ephesians 6:10-18).